In my early 20's, I used to suffer from a lack of confidence...
I lost my mojo and fell into a bit of a funk š, which I managed to hide really well from friends and family.
But, it manifested in my daily life with feelings of imposter syndrome, lack of direction and the inability to be assertive with my decision making. āļø
After LOTS of reflection, I realised that having low confidence and limiting beliefs was beginning to reduce my personal drive and ambition. š
To try and shake it off... I threw myself out of my comfort zone, by pursuing standup Comedy and in work by taking on managerial positions. š
I never saw myself as a ācreativeā, but after a trip to Japan visiting @Teamlab_borderless in TOKYO...
I picked up a paper and crayon for the first time in MANY years for the āsketch aquariumā, this is where the picture you draw is digitised and brought to life in a huge life-sized sized aquarium in front of your eyes... swimming together with the other sea creatures drawn by other people. š”š¦
I quietly sat down and coloured in my little Seahorse and to my surprise I found myself melting into what I can only describe, as some sort of zen āflow stateā. š§āāļø
There was a profound moment of BLISS š where all of my internal noise reduced, my mind calmed and I began to feel immense pride and genuine joy with my creation aka 'little Eric'. š
This was a feeling that had been alien to me for so long... hence my confused grin in the picture š„“š
After witnessing its effects on my emotional state, I thought that maybe ART is the perfect low risk medium, to allow me and perhaps others to step outside of their comfort zone... š
By looking at a blank canvas, I was able to face underlying anxiety, explore self-doubt and internal judgements. š
Learning a new skill at any age can lead to feelings of discomfort, uncertainty, vulnerability, and the fear of failure.
By taking on a fun creative challenge šØš in a controlled encouraging environment, you can slowly build up your own creative-confidence muscle and mental fortitude.šŖ
Have you ever lacked confidence? š
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